First and foremost, they traveled so far just to greet me, I do not also go to sacrifice winter the

From the province we, I visited my sister and my niece (including living winter in Manila to my mother). Actually planned to visit it. We're going to a distant place to celebrate my birthday. I also thought that I maiipit situation of our plan this trend ... and especially so that I do not postpone it.
First and foremost, they traveled so far just to greet me, I do not also go to sacrifice winter their mother. Another ayoko makahalata they in turn have pinagdadaanang winter extreme situations. Family because we'm the boldest. I know magtataka them and ask if I show any weakness or uncertainty. I am not yet ready to let them know my situation. I know only contribute yun if they have any concerns. I do not want to live at the mercy of others. I would, if anything they view and treat me then, as still to finish my time on this planet. And of course I thought well, how does if the same day a year from now eh nothing that turned me into this world? I would also have harmful, pro-kwentuhan and mapadama I love even just a simple way.
While on the bus we walked to our destination, I have not been able to prevent myself. That's the first time I shed tears ... excessive inhibition inhibition Yung emotions. I try to show that I'm winter courageous, but no matter how you turned courage really love coming time you will not prevent further Yung tear. Good thing we Nathan abreast on the bus, and passable only sleep Mom and my sister. Yung kidding Nathan felt the crying, I also almost lost her crying moment Nung yun. Ganun actually have two, we do not show much emotion. And that is the first time that we once shed, perhaps also maybe the extra weight of our taking.
Also enjoyed my birthday. I forget the momentary weight of my situation. I'm happy for three days and two nights, I admire those who shared closest to my heart. We eat, swim, went to different islands ... would give me a lot more opportunities winter like this. While we were in paradise place, Nathan asked me if I'd ever let who claims them my situation ... I said no first.
Honestly, I do not know how affordable my mother know that I have this disease. I know that not just letting him do it ... them. But I am not yet ready, and Nathan is there also. He is my foundation winter in this time and I turn to him. He still can not informing his family. So we have only two simultaneously resistant to disease, was just passable and he still healthy and not whenever I re any disease. Seems I not perhaps have been able to bear the same seated condition.